If you could only see the way I could love you, time would stop. The rivers would overflow, the sun would never stop shining, and tears of happiness would only exist. You could never break my heart because you would have been the one that mended it. In the storms of my insanity, you willContinue reading “A LETTER TO MY SOULMATE”
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BLUE JEANS
Do you know how you have that old pair of blue jeans that you wish you could still fit? The ones with the holes in them, with the hard-to-snap buttons and are most likely missing a belt loop. We wish we can fit in them again, but we have to make specific changes to doContinue reading “BLUE JEANS”
June 10th – food for thought
“Just because I’m broken, doesn’t mean I’m worthless, I just been through hell and back and somehow still alive.”-Joshua Bridges The harder you work, the harder it is to surrender.-Vince Lombardi The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision,Continue reading “June 10th – food for thought”
TEARS IN A BOTTLE
As I sit here and reflect on my sobriety and I have relapsed yet again. It’s so hard, the guilt, of being around people who are sober and knowing I could at any moment be a part of taking their sobriety away. It feels like, at this point, I have no one to turn to.Continue reading “TEARS IN A BOTTLE”
THE GIRL FROM NOWHERE…….
The quiet girl that used to have everything to say has said her last words today. Shallow girl, hallowed from the inside out, as she runs away just so she doesn’t hurt another soul again today. Her smiles trapped and washed away in the rain; her laughter flooded like puddles, slowly evaporating into thin air,Continue reading “THE GIRL FROM NOWHERE…….”
He Will Carry You
The Lord will carry you if you ask Him. When you are feeling so weak you cannot take another step, ask Him to lift you high into His loving arms. Then rest in Him with an open and listening heart. This does not mean your problems will disappear, but it does mean you will haveContinue reading “He Will Carry You”
HOW I DEAL WITH TRIGGERING SITUATIONS
I put myself in many triggering situations that most people would find to be very difficult for me. This is true, but I do it intending to save someone else. Plus, I never pass judgment. Just because I stopped drinking doesn’t mean the rest of the world has to. My illness is my illness. IContinue reading “HOW I DEAL WITH TRIGGERING SITUATIONS”
LOVE – MY SILENT KILLER
Depression fueled by the negative thinking of self, the constant thought that I’m not good enough, that ill never be good enough for anyone. I love so hard, but I can’t love myself. Why? Why do I hate myself so much? Why do I fight a compliment? Why am I blinded by this sadness thatContinue reading “LOVE – MY SILENT KILLER”
JUNE 8TH – FOOD FOR THOUGHT
Doing the right thing is hard till you start doing the right thing without thinking about it; that shit hits different.-Joshua Bridges It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinions; it is easy in solitude to live after your own, but the great man is he who in the midst ofContinue reading “JUNE 8TH – FOOD FOR THOUGHT”
THE WORLD ACCORDING TO MR. ROGERS
In times of stress, the best thing we can do for each other is to listen with our ears and our hearts and to be assured that our questions are just as important as our answers. -Fred Rogers TO LEAVE A COMMENT SCROLL DOWN
ONE DAY AT A TIME IN AL-ANON JUNE 7TH
Suppose, in taking a break from my whirling thoughts, I settle down quietly to think about the word “courtesy.” It means far more than mere politeness; you can be polite without an iota of personal love, warm concern for the other person’s comfort, peace of mind, and well-being. Even giving directions to a confused strangerContinue reading “ONE DAY AT A TIME IN AL-ANON JUNE 7TH”
Grief Lasts Longer Than Expected
Grief’s unexpected turns will throw you again and again. You may feel that for every step forward, you take at least one step back. The grieving process generally takes longer than you ever imagined. Please don’t rush this process. Remember, what you are feeling is not only normal; it is necessary. “It’s been seven years,Continue reading ” Grief Lasts Longer Than Expected”
I GOT YOU!!!
I got into it with a rehab facility lady from a different city. I’m not going to mention the facility name, but if you don’t like your job and have no compassion for people, you should find a different job. Telling me that the person I’m trying to help is probably too far gone forContinue reading “I GOT YOU!!!”
Pain and Progress
“Years ago I used to commiserate with all people who suffered. Now I commiserate only with those who suffer in ignorance, who do not understand the purpose and ultimate utility of pain.”<< << << >> >> >>Someone once remarked that pain is the touchstone of spiritual progress. How heartily we A.A.’s can agree with him,Continue reading “Pain and Progress”
12 STEPS
At Ann’s insistence, the nagging wife, Dr. Bob, agreed to go to the Seiberling Estate that Mother’s Day afternoon to meet this character from New York, but she had to promise that they would stay no longer than fifteen minutes. When they met at the Gatehouse, Bill looked at Dr. Bob, who was perspiring, shakingContinue reading “12 STEPS”
THE WORLD ACCORDING TO MR. ROGERS
Forgiveness is a strange thing. It can sometimes be easier to forgive our enemies than our friends. It can be hardest of all to forgive people we love. Like all of life’s important coping skills, the ability to forgive and the capacity to let go of resentments most likely take root very early in ourContinue reading “THE WORLD ACCORDING TO MR. ROGERS”
Grief Runs Deep: Where Is the Hope?
Dr. Joseph Stowell says, “Even though your heart is breaking and tears are clouding your eyes and staining your cheeks, God does give us something worth trusting in tough times. And that’s Him, and Him alone.” When your heart is breaking, you can place your hope and trust in the Lord. “Be strong and takeContinue reading “Grief Runs Deep: Where Is the Hope?”
SPREAD LOVE AND NOT HATE
I envy the fact that others have good night kisses and talk about their day with their children. I got sick, and someone decided I wasn’t good enough for my children. Maybe I wasn’t at that moment in time, but I got better, and I am good enough. I was always good enough; I justContinue reading “SPREAD LOVE AND NOT HATE”
Grief Is a Unique Experience
You may feel it is useless to talk about your grief because no one truly understands what you are going through. “You sometimes feel after an experience like this that you’re talking a foreign language,” says Dora, whose daughter died. “You feel like there’s no way anybody can know what you’re feeling. There is absolutelyContinue reading “Grief Is a Unique Experience”
YOU {R} NOT ALONE YOU HAVE A VOICE! 