“I was mad. I felt like the Lord was not there. I had prayed to hear from Him, and I didn’t. It seemed as if He wasn’t answering my prayers,” says Phyllis, who lost her sister. “Emotionally and spiritually I expected something different. I knew that He was there, but I wasn’t feeling emotionally like I wanted to feel.”
You are not alone, and you are not wrong to have doubts.
David said in the Psalms, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?” (22:1).
Job had similar feelings: “Remember, O God, that my life is but a breath; my eyes will never see happiness again” (7:7). Job thought he would “never see happiness again,” but when we read the end of the book of Job, we find that God had something very good in store for him.
God is faithful to do what He says He will do regardless of how you feel or what you believe.
Lord, I’m going to walk this journey by faith because what I feel and see sure isn’t helping. Amen.